Rahsia Zaleha

Apa rahsia saya?

Langit redup membawa pilu,
Angin sepoi terus meniup,
Hati luka terus membeku,
Biarlah cerita ini tertutup,

Sabagai rahsia kita..

Terus menerus hujan membasahi,
Pecah sesudah mencium bumi,
Indahnya salju bagaikan mimpi,
Surga dunia keikhlasan hati,

Kekhilafan itu adalah manusia,
Yang hidup meniti garis norma,
Aku bakal mengharungi semua,
Ketandusan kegersangan dunia.

♥ Zaleha

P.S: Archives are in the Links page!

Siapakah saya?

I've told M so many times that I would get myself a diary, heck, to find myself a pretty one would be one journey itself, So in the meanwhile, I'll continue to blog.

I've had many blogs before, 3 personals one. I've shut it all down. Well, I guess blogging is good, it is addictive, a sanctuary.

For the fact of who I am? Does it really matter? As for me, I believe my dramas and stories makes more sense
than me describing myself. So read! If you want. No? Not interested? Than leave, as you will.

♥ Zaleha

P.S:Hover around the images to reach the other pages.

2:02 AM

Sunday, August 3, 2008

I ate ice-cream potong with roti this evening, and pizza, and grilled chicken. Last night (12 AM to be exact), I chowed down food at Uptown Damansara. What more could I ever ask for?

I gained back 2 kgs just by staying at home for two days. Crap. That quick? After all the dieting and walking? Huh...well, I guess I'll be losing it back soon anyway. I'm feeling like crap already and tomorrow is Monday. Mondays aren't my day. I hate them. It makes me feel like there's another whole week to go through.

My weekends,so far are filled with eating food and family members.That's what I do best. Staying at home with them. Next Saturday,9th of August, is Ayah's birthday, oh-so-excited! Is there anything I should get for him? Talking about him, reminds me a lot about my time with my ex, and how much he opposed the relationship so much. He never said a word about it directly, but have my mom scold me all the time about my ex. I defended him all the time. I hate those times.

After I broke up, I realized how grave the sadness I have caused my parents. I crippled myself so much over a guy that barely defends my love. Why did I do what I did? Amazingly, I recovered that quickly, because I simply gave up. Giving up. It's easy. Really. once you just let go and not care, the pain of the realtionship just goes away, and thus, you stop crying.

I love ayah, and my mom. And as you can see, (if you are my friends), I have more pictures of my family all around me. I miss my mama more, and hates asking money from ayah. I really don't know how to ever pay them back, after all the pain I had caused. I swore to myself to never ever do stupid things ever again. What more, lately, many of my friends parents had passed away, makes me realized even more of how important they are to me.

Pasir emas disinggah basah,

Bayu deras dari timur,

Teratawa melihat wajah ayah,

Igau dirinya dalam tidur.

Harum benar mawar merah,

Zaitun santan santapan DiRaja,

Mama berkejaran tanpa lelah,

Senantiasa berada untuk saya.

10:10 PM

Saturday, August 2, 2008

I am back to blogging with a secret identity. Hopes nobody knows this blog exist, because the last time I had a blog, it caused me a major pain. I am blunt, and direct. Frank to be exact. I just write what my heart wants too. I don't use a higher english language. I write words that mean something.

Don't we all?

Moving to the bigger matters. The main reason why I shut down my before blog was to save myself, from criticism, and to salvage my friendship to J becuase of the AS problem. Blogging has brought so much damage though. Still, I insist ! I insist very much. I won't stay resentful far too long. This is my drama, and I am going to write it out as usually do and always.

Just that this time, I will be more careful with what I punch down on the keyboards.

Di sebalik tabir itu,
Ada mata yang gelap,
Hitam,Lusuh,Munusuk,
Itulah..mata musuhKu.

♥ Zaleha